A week or two ago, I was feeling kind of down. It was the kind of down where I was thinking, “I’m such a pain in the ass,” “Why do I bother to draw in breath?,” “Maybe it’s best I not inflict myself on others.” You know, that kind of self-esteem sucking down feeling that we depressive people sometimes get, even when we’re on medication. I wasn’t in the full-blown “I want to die” kind of mood, but you get the idea. Anyway, I wanted to cheer up, so I turned to the Internet and googled Maria Bamford, bipolar comedian.
I don’t remember how I first heard of Maria Bamford. Maybe it was on NPR; I hear about lots of great things there. So I found a few of her videos online and pretty soon I was laughing and feeling much better.
Her brand of humor isn’t for everyone. Some of it is offensive, and as one online comment noted, her humor can be “dark.” But we know darkness, don’t we, my depressive brothers and sisters? Her humor is largely based on her struggles with mental illness, so even the parts that aren’t funny are at least familiar. So check her out, commiserate with someone who’s been there, and have a few laughs. And the next time you’re feeling down (or more down than usual), I hope you’ll remember to visit her again.